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Re: “Why Was I Not Enough?” – A Letter From a Hurting Spouse

Simon Camilleri — Thu, 08 Nov 2012 19:09:37 -0000

A wonderfully honest and heartbreaking blog Donny. As another guy who has gone through divorce partly due to my porn addiction, I have thoughts lots about how it affects wives and how that double-life evolves and takes on a power of its own.

Re: Conversations with a Former Prostitute

Rob — Fri, 02 Nov 2012 15:20:17 -0000

Dear She-

Thank you so much for your honesty and your testimony, and knowing that this is only a very small fraction of all of the ways this has hurt your life, it's just overwhelming to think about. I am praying for you as I write this note...

As humiliating as this is to say, I've struggled with pornography for years and have unfortunately helped create the demand that drives the supply. I have contributed to keeping the system alive and well and I'm ashamed to say so. However, the Lord has brought me a long way through forgiveness, accountability, confession, and education, and I've continued to find increasing freedom from sexual sin over the past several years, thanks to His grace and mercy.

In further honesty, I'm currently sitting at my office alone and was feeling tempted to surf for pornography on my laptop when I remembered some of the horrors Mr. Pauling has spoken about and I knew that if I could bring my mind back to the reality of the devistation I'm contributing to that I'd be able to stay sexually pure one more day. I just wanted you to know that your testimony has reminded me of what is really happening on the other side of the camera and has given me a new resolve to make the sex industry less one more customer.

That said, thank you again for your honesty. It, along with the Word of God, organizations like Mr. Paulings and a group of men to pray for me and hold me accountable, has helped me to honor my God, my wife, my kids, other women and myself one more day. Please remember that we've all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, but He is faithful and just to forgive those who confess their sins and will use ALL THINGS to the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. He loves you, and THAT is the only thing that matters.

I hope you get to read how your conversation with Mr. Pauling has helped me today and that it brings you even more courage to allow the Lord to turn this around and use it for your good, His glory, and the saving of the lives of many men and women.

"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." Genesis 50:20

Including mine...

Re: Bethel Is A Really Weird Church

Gruvegod — Thu, 27 Sep 2012 16:18:47 -0000

And no drugs? That one I've heard before too.

Re: Bethel Is A Really Weird Church

Gruvegod — Thu, 27 Sep 2012 16:16:50 -0000

Kidnapping for the CIA? And, I thought, I'd heard it all. Conspiracy theory really takes on a new meaning. Wow!

Re: Bethel Is A Really Weird Church

Gruvegod — Thu, 27 Sep 2012 16:12:11 -0000

It seems most of those who walked the earth during the time Jesus walked it here in the flesh, thought He was "nut case." Go figure.

Re: Bethel Is A Really Weird Church

Gruvegod — Thu, 27 Sep 2012 16:08:52 -0000

Man, sounds like the Southern Baptists I grew up with. A couple of them are still weird.

Re: What Would You Do If You Knew Today Was the Last Day of Your Life?

Corina Mitrache — Thu, 16 Aug 2012 11:14:36 -0000

If today was my last day and i would know about it i would not sleep the night before and write a poem or something like this to better describe my feelings than i would eat a lot of junk food and in the morning i would take my money and catch the first New York plane and try all thing that could be tried.I would donate the rest of my money to hopeless people and i would call all people i have ever met in a room and tell them every secret i ever had.I would tell them i loved this life and don;t be sad and don't cry even if tears would be falling fast from my red eyes.I want to end in my people's arms,hugging my mom and trying to smile and laugh with that tears falling on my face.

Re: Bethel Is A Really Weird Church

Annaml4 — Sat, 07 Jul 2012 02:02:20 -0000

Completely agree. First of all with the fact that there is a lot of fraud going on with the fact. Second of all with the fact that LOVE is the point here and not signs and miracles. That would be like wanting the blessings without wanting the blesser. God can still use people who are growing in spiritual maturity, ergo, someone's mistakes don't belittle the Truth of God's works and wonders... But you can usually tell by someone's love if they're the real thing. Now the thing is though that Bethel is the real deal no joke. All the leaders and all the students- they pursue a loving relationship with Jesus and pouring out that love on others. When they pray for people- healing or not- they are satisfied with the fact that God is moving in lovr in the person's life. Vast miracles are not the focus and Bill Johnson talks about this allll the time when he preaches. They get so many wonders and signs BECAUSE they are focused on the blesser and not the blessing.... On the Jesus and not the gift. But they are grateful for the miracles. It's a very good church no doubt. Also, they are not the only church God's moving in- which is something they also understand. They are being led by a very humble man, that Bill Johnson. I can name plenty of other charismatic churches who are not focusing on the right thing and, as the Bible says, the result is bad fruit and it's very obvious to see.

Re: Bethel Is A Really Weird Church

Annaml4 — Sat, 07 Jul 2012 01:47:20 -0000

Thank you sir for your complete honesty in this review. I am a proud supporter of the openess Bethel has to what God is doing. I don't at all think of your opinion of it as any less because you still feel that the worship methods are unusual. That's okay. What's important is that you've seen that God moves :) at Bethel, they're just always finding new ways to give glory to the Creator. I really appreciate this review. Again, thank you for yor honesty and insight!
Be bless!! He loves you so amazingly much.

Re: Bethel Is A Really Weird Church

Toni Stephenson — Tue, 03 Jul 2012 11:52:16 -0000

May I just say that if it wasn't for "treasure hunting" I wouldn't know Jesus. I grew up going to church when I was young. I heard all about religion and nothing about relationship with God. So before you or others bash Bethel don't just look at it as all "weird." God is judge so let Him judge.

Re: You’re Invited to One Heckuva Party!

Matt — Mon, 25 Jun 2012 21:56:08 -0000

Homosexualality is a sin and although I agree that we hate the sin and not the sinner if someone practicing homosexualality comes to the Lord then they need to repent and turn from there sin same as liers murders and people filled with pride do. The Church is facing emmense amounts of pressure to turn away from Gods word on the subject of homosexualality, it is a sin and the sign of a callapsing society under judgement. Romans 1:24-28

Re: On Affairs: A Prayer

In His Service — Fri, 11 May 2012 09:56:09 -0000

When we talk to people who are coming to an awareness of their sin before God, and the consequences they've suffered for that sin, I agree that we must show them from God's word that how they have engaged in sin, and that sin pays a wage. Coming to a knowledge of the Savior and being saved involves coming to a knowledge of our sin, owning it, and turning (repenting) of it. While none of that can earn our salvation, God has said it's part of the process. Just look at what Jesus does with the woman at the well (Jn 4:17). He confronts her with her sin, facing her with breaking God's law. Then he identifies himself as the Messiah. The one she should be trusting to save her.

Having said that, I also believe that communicating the gospel to people can be done in a humble way. That doesn't mean I don't like to listen to an earnest, and even vehement preacher - I do. But even in that, a godly man knows what he has been saved from. He has seen his own sin and need of a savior. When people are fleeing a life of sin, kicking them to the curb and telling them they got what they deserved seems to lack the kind of humility Paul had when he identified himself as the chief of sinners (1Tim 1:15). We all deserve the wrath of God, in fact, we are born under his wrath (Eph 2:1-3). It is only by the grace of God that he has worked salvation in any of us.

Re: "What Doesn't Kill Us Makes Us Stronger"

Paul — Thu, 10 May 2012 11:30:03 -0000

I like this very much. Praise the lord for your honesty. I just read this for the first time. Im struggling with sin and love the lord so its hard. But im couraged by your words. So thank-you . Im from holland BTW. My name is paul.

Re: Conversations with a Former Prostitute

Someone who is praying for you — Thu, 03 May 2012 16:20:44 -0000

Dear SHE--Jesus loves you beyond all measure. I know He is with you as you heal, and I pray that everything will be completely cleansed and made whole again in Him. God bless you--and keep going in Jesus!

Re: Conversations with a Former Prostitute

Ashley Moreno — Sat, 28 Apr 2012 01:56:25 -0000

Dear She, I'd be proud to introduce you to my daughter. So glad your voice was found! With much love---

Re: Speaking in Little Rock, Arkansas Last Weekend

Ashley Moreno — Sat, 28 Apr 2012 01:53:14 -0000

You were here and I missed it!!! I'd have loved to have brought my children to hear you. Sorry I didn't know you were coming.

Re: Conversations with a Former Prostitute

Bill — Thu, 05 Apr 2012 09:50:03 -0000

Dear "She,"
What amazing courage to allow your story to be shared. And let me say that you are an EXCELLENT writer. I want you to know that these experiences do not define you. They are part of your story, but they are not your core, and they do not make up your identity. You are not who those men said you are. You are not who your employers said you are. You are who God in heaven, the father of Jesus Christ, says you are. He says you are beautiful, cleansed, accepted, redeemed, set free, cherished, valued, and worthy of respect, honor, and praise. Keep on your journey toward becoming all that God has in mind for you. Blessings and prayers.
Bill

Re: Conversations with a Former Prostitute

AJ Daltorio — Thu, 05 Apr 2012 01:23:43 -0000

Wow. Thanks for sharing. This makes me want to be a more respectful man of God. To quote a song, "I don't want to be the father who has to watch his daughter be conned and stripped bare by a monster like me."
God bless both of you.

Re: Dear @JohnCMayer – Re: Producing Porn

I. M. High — Fri, 30 Mar 2012 21:28:35 -0000

Thank you for trying. If you turn even one person around it'll be worth it. As the former wife of a porn addict, I still feel dirty, knowing he preferred THAT over the pure love I had for him.

Re: Barack's In Office: How Many of You are Getting Abortions?

DonnyPauling — Fri, 30 Mar 2012 12:27:34 -0000

You completely missed the point. I am totally anti-abortion. The point of that article is that Barack Obama has nothing to do with abortion in America. That is an issue that will be settled far above his pay grade.

Re: Speaking in Little Rock, Arkansas Last Weekend

DonnyPauling — Fri, 30 Mar 2012 12:23:55 -0000

"There Is a God: How the World's Most Notorious Atheist Changed His Mind" by Antony Flew

Re: Barack's In Office: How Many of You are Getting Abortions?

Guest — Fri, 30 Mar 2012 12:15:47 -0000

I find it ironic that you talk about the dignity of a woman through Jesus Christ, but do not see the dignity of a child in another's womb. I love what you have to say about how porn harms, but am puzzled as to why you believe we shouldn't be doing something to protect the child in a mother's womb. In addition, the woman (just as in porn) doesn't realize what they are doing to themselves emotionally or physically, and just as you knew the girls you worked with would have these images/videos out there for the rest of her life, so will this woman have to scars of their abortion on their heart. A very similar injustice to women and the society. I agree we need to love these women and I do, my heart goes out to them, but there are three victims in the crime of abortion: mother, baby, and community.

Re: How My Head Ended Up Cue-Ball Bald

David Baird — Fri, 16 Mar 2012 20:51:33 -0000

Hi Donny. Just listened to your talk in Halifax. I was the guy that asked you the only question from the audience. "What do you do now?" I want to send you a book I wrote. (No, it's not porn.) It is about Planet Earth quantum-leaping into the future -- (Comet Strike -- the Evolution of a SuperWorld) a world with a functioning "SuperHub" and a "United Global Space Force". I'm sure you would like it. When you get this message, just email me cometx@eastlink.ca and I'll send you a copy. Or you can check out the "SuperPackage" any time you want at www.spacemonster.biz. Did you ever stop to realize that, as we all go about our daily walks of life, there is a comet coming with our name on it and the technology to do something about the problem is sitting idle on the shelf? (Extinction, like the dinosaurs!!! Is that what we are heading towards?) No: We just build ourselves a "Comet Shield". We'll get our SuperBuddy, Bill Gates, to spark off the SuperHub and we'll be well on our way to superworlds status...
Dave

Re: Speaking in Little Rock, Arkansas Last Weekend

Tre2487 — Sat, 03 Mar 2012 03:39:11 -0000

Donny what is the name of the book you referred to that is written by an atheist proving god?

Re: Dear @JohnCMayer – Re: Producing Porn

Kirsten — Mon, 27 Feb 2012 11:08:39 -0000

AMAZING!! Your experiences can teach many. Please stick with it, Mr. Pauling!!